Starting Week Six Again....

well, I never really did week six. It started on Christmas Day and Week Seven started on New Year's Day.. So technically this should be trigger week. Oddly I am looking forward to trigger week! In a very strange way I think it will be fun.

So, to make the most of it I am starting Week 6 today. I need to catch up on my reading and find out what that actually means.

I feel so much better for going to the meeting. The bad news is a 3lb gain. But actually - I am quite happy with that. I had feared it would be more - 3lb is really not too bad. The meeting wasn't great - there was a massive turn out of new starters and returners and a few familiar faces. As we are all at different stages it is hard to have a constructive meeting. But it was like a post-confessional high. I laid my sins infront of me, was forgiven and got back on with the programme. Hurrah.

So operation lose 3lbs starts now. Well actually - I want to lose 7lbs. So. That is the current goal. 7lbs...

Co-ordinates locked - destination in sight...

Hello there.. Feeling a bit better today. I've been a good girl. I've tried hard to stick with a version of the programme.

I think blogging really helped and has been something I have not been doing for a while - so I am glad I got back with this. Yesterday I ate very well, mainly fruit and quinoa. I also did a 600 calorie work out at the gym. Today I had quinoa and apple porridge for breakfast, an LL foodpack for lunch, fruit snacks and a prawn salad for dinner after the gym. I also had a bar this evening - a lemon bar as biscuits. Delicious. So I think I am doing well.

I am still way way over what I was before Christmas. Last count - about 5lbs over. Now this is mentally acceptable as long as I can shift it again. Even if it takes til February to do so. One of the problems of LL is that you expect to drop lots of weight each week, and can easily forget that if you're eating that is not as easy. But if this is for life - and it has to be, then I must get used to putting on and loosing weight. That needs to be normal but within a range. Ideally that range would be 9lbs below where I am right now.

My focus has slightly changed. I am thinking more about getting fitter and more toned. I can already feel the improvement in such a short time. I just have to keep up the commitment.

So, weigh in tomorrow. I am dreading it as I know I have put on. I have toyed with the idea of never going back and just working out my own programme but I know that will not work. So I must face the music.

A long, long, long way from the route to management - Day still not known

Argh. Confession time. I have slipped right back to old habits. Not entirely, by which I mean I did avoid getting take out, eating pizza etc, but I have been in some demented state and have been eating way too much.

New Year's Eve was a unmitigated disaster. I didn't avoid drink - and it led to a whole world of pain and misery. But the less said about that the better. However it has meant that I have been replacing my usual comforts with food. I have not shifted any weight. In fact this morning I am even heavier. The crooked thinking is working over time and I can't seem to shout it down.

The only positive is that I have been going to the gym and working off about 500 calories each time - but this is not enough. I had intended not to go back to the meeting until I had shifted the weight I had gained but at this rate it is not possible. I need to go back in and accept my wrong doings - and get back with the programme.

Route to Management works - I know it does. When I was reading the blue book - following the food choices, looking after myself and thinking about what I was doing it worked. So, for those of you starting RtM - stick with it. I need to seriously get back to it. I am going to assume I am on week 5 from this week. I will go back and read the books and start again from there. And another gym trip today.